6 Bulan Dah :)

Last night I heard my own heart beating 

Sounded like footsteps on my stairs 

Six months gone and I'm still reaching 

Even though I know you're not there 

I was playing back a thousand memories baby 

Thinkin bout everything we've been through 

Maybe i've been going back too much lately 

When time stood still and I had you 

Come back come back come back to me like 

You would you would if this was a movie 

Stand in the rain outside til I came out 

Come back come back come back to me like 

You could you could if you just said you're sorry 

I know that we can work it out somehow 

But if this was a movie you'd be here by now 

I know people change and these things happen 

But I remember how it was back then 

Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing 

Cause nothing like this ever happened to them 

Now I'm pacing down the hall 

Chasing down your street 

Flashback to the night when you said to me 

Nothings gonna change not for me and you 

Not before I knew how much I had to lose 

Come back come back come back to me like 

You would you would if this was a movie 

Stand in the rain outside til i came out 

Come back come back come back to me like 

You could you could if you just said you're sorry 

I know that we can work it out somehow 

But if this was a movie you'd be here by now 

If you're out there if you're somewhere if you're moving on 

I've be waiting for you ever since you've been gone 

I just want it back the way it was before 

And i just wanna see you back at my front door 

And i'd say 

Come back come back come back to me like 

You would before you said its not that easy 

Before the fight before i locked you out 

But i'd take it all back now 

Come back come back come back to me like 

You would you would if this was a movie 

Stand in the rain outside til i came out 

Come back come back come back to me like 

You could you could if you just said you're sorry 

I know that we could work it out somehow 

But if this was a movie you'd be here by now 

You'd be here by now 

It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now 

Baby what about the ending 

Oh i thought you'd be here by now oh ohh ohh ohh 

That you'd be here by now

Oh , i was checking the calender while listening to the song of the lyrics above and I suddenly realised that , it has been six months since the heart-broken break-up.

Dear you , 

I am really hoping that you would actually read this.

5JANUARY2011,

You called me right?I dont know what has gotten into you but yeah you called.First late on the evening you called and it was 44minutes , then later that night you called again and that time was 2hours long.

During our conversation im starting to realize that i barely have that strong feeling towards you anymore.or do i?

You taught me so much things and you gave me the best adviced.I would never believed that i actually got some adviced from you.LOL.Then you told me so much about yourself that i found hard to believe.But , you said it was all the truth.I made myself to believe it.After a while , i got comfy talking to you and start babbling about my life.You were so not a good listener.LIKE REALLY.LOL.Then the truth (well im not really sure) came out . You said everything was a total LIE.Our  4months relationship was true all along and THAT PERSON was just trying to sabotage you.At that very moment I just felt like I am about to burst into heavy tears.But I managed to controlled my emotions.

I was in a deep confusion.I dont really know which side of story to believe.Who is telling the truth and who isn't.I decide to let it gone with my tears.Yeah I actually cried.Then you appologize for breaking my heart , for making me cry . To be truth , half of me was ego enough to deny your request because you cut me deep . But half of me kept saying . JUST FORGIVE HIM ALREADY AND GET ON WITH IT.But yeah , in the end , we both knew the answer right?

You also thanked me for making you happy those 4 months?haha , well , dear , i thank you more fo making me happier:) .You dont know how much those 4 months meant to me.Believe me . I never lied to you except that one time . . . teehee.:)

Dear,

Thank you for making my 3-4hours of that day worth every laugh and smile.I had fun talked to you.And i am looking forward to talk to you soon.:)Thank You for listening to my problem dear friend :) . Basically , thank you for everything.

Based on the lyrics , im not looking forward for the situation to happen in reality . But if this WAS a movie , i would gladly tell you that i want you back and i am still in love with you.

But news flash!

This is not a movie.:)

ToodlessXOXO