Growing Up

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Wednesday,0905.

Nurse : It's A Girl
Ma&Pa : (hold each other hand ; Smile )

Somewhere Around Mac 1998
4y/o

Me : (Watching Tv which Erra Fazira was on ; Dreaming about being an adult like her ; Want to be an adult)

October 2007
13y/o


Me : (watching Sheikh Muszaphar went to the ISS ; Wanting to grow up and be an astronaut ; Cant wait to grow up)

January 2011
17y/o


Me : ( taking care of aunt's baby and little cousin ; Realize how good it is being a children . Inoncence , sweet , bubbly ; Want to stop growing )

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Have you ever been a situation like mine?
Yeah , 
I still remember when I was still an underage , 
i used to wish that I can grow fast and become like Erra Fazira . LOL .
Then when High School Musical aired , 
I wish to grow up fast and go to hollywood and become like the gourges Vanessa Hudgens . LOL.


I used to imagine hows my future gonna turn out . 
What I want to be when Im older , 
Hows my life when Im married . hee~
I used to pretend that all my dolls are my kids :)
I would feed them using imaginary bottle , i would change their diapers using my little brother's diapers.LOL.Of course the un-used on .DUH!
Then I would took my mom's lipstick , compact powder and all those make-up stuff and put it on all my dolly .


After seeing Sheikh Muszaphar went to space ,
At that very moment , 
I really really wanted to grow up and be an astronaut.
Like seriously .
I would act like a grown up so that way I can grow fast.


Time seems to move on fast . 
Every year im getting older like i wanted to.
Problems starting to bug me a lot .
Not to mention heartbroken gets me hard .
Life seems to be so difficult .
And parents seems to put all responsibility on me because my older brother has now gone to university.
And they doesnt seems to look after me anymore :(
It is all about my bratty lilttle brother


I faced so many new people .
Mean ones , the kind ones , the heartbreaker one , the funny and fun ones and so much more.
I learned to not be weak but its difficult because i am an giver not an accepter kind of person.
And problems doesnt seems going to leave me alone.
It gets worst each time. 
It seems like the world are getting colder .


When I looked at those small kids ,
i kinda miss it my childhood moment.
For once i wish the time could just stop and rewind.


Being kid is something special
People around you would look after you.
Love you , kiss you everytime and whenever they want to ,
Problems didnt seems to bug you like they do when your older.
People would be nice to you.
Treat you right.
*sigh .
I wanna be kids again .
Where i was allowed to do almost everything want . =|
And the world are so much more warmer .


But again .
I AM GETTING OLDER.
Turning 17 this year not 7 .


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Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up
It could still be simple

Taylor Swift - Never Grow Up

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Actually , 

Growing up is not that bad .

Just yeah .

You know ,

Sometimes i just wished i was little .

Plus growing up is unstoppable :)

p/s : please do ignore my broken language and broken grammar.It has been forever since i wrote my own essay.pffft , THANK YOUU DEAR PN S_ _ _ _ _Y *note the sarcastic.

Toodless

xoxo