Counted the days . I even made a reminder in my fone . So it is like 15 days more before the you-know-whats-coming-dear-fivers . And if you minus the weekends which only left 2 saturdays and 2 sundays it would be like only 11 days left and if you minus raya qurban holidays which is on Monday , then you will have like 10 more days till the-one-whom-name-shall-not-be-told (LOL , voldermort much?)
10 more days . Not even 2 weeks left . Seriously . 10 FREAKING DAYS LEFT . And yet I am still not well prepared . Like usual , im the type of girl who loves to study at the eleventh hour . What I fear the most is , im not gonna make it .
I just wish for the time to slow down to a stop . Which seriously , not gonna happen . Pchh , i know that (dissapointed face) .
Well , lots of other form five's student have their target on you-know-what , but for me , I dont really like to put my expectations high . Thats why I dont have a target . Let it be whatever alphabets on the result's paper next year . I've been thru it okay . Put my hopes up for PMR , and when the results were out , I was left dissapointed (Not really actually) . So I am just gonna try my best for you-know-what-exam .
Unfortunately , my parents put a high expectations on me like other typical parents would do . Oh yay in sarcastic tone . They expect me to score atleast 6A's which are seriously , I am struggling to fulfill it . I know I let my parents down with my last result . I am determine to atleast make them proud this once and show them that I can do it . So the pressures are high now . The weights on my shoulders are getting larger and larger and I just want to scream it all out .
Im not really good handling all the pressures and the tensions . I dont know but , I am currently used crying myself to sleep . Which causing puffy eyes on the next days . Lately , I found a way to at least ease the hard feeling away little bit . I write . I write stuff , like a mini novel I guess . I've been writing a lot . And I felt much better afterwards .
Nowadays , I love to myself alone in my bedroom . I dont know , I find it really peaceful . Only me , my bed , my novels , my laptop , my comics , my one and only teddy Mr Huggly Puff <---- Teddy's Name , my mirror , my pillows , my collections , my blanket , my febrezze yadda yadda and so much more which mostly in a typical girl's room . Spending a lot time alone with the books . Yes , school books .
School? Well , it has never been better . Im used to it already and yeah , classmates are cool once they got to know me . LOL .Yeah , they're fine . Well at least im enjoying my last moment of senior year with them . Thats all the matter , even though I was , you know , left by the airplane , had to walk my way out to them . But its all good now . At least , I have someone or two to talk to. And at least I TALKED . lol . funny funny .
What else?
Oh , it has been awhile since I contact my mates back in Seri Iskandar , vice versa . We all are busy with the upcoming you-know-what . I capital m . i . s . s them . SERIOUSLY . To tell you the truth , I would usually go thru our pictures together at night , hoping for at least them showed up in my dreams . Lol , cheesy , i know . Its the truth . Once the you-know-what ends , im gonna find a part time job and then save up some money and wooosshhhhh , IM GONNA BE BACK SERI ISKANDAR .
Guys , IMISSYOU .
Guess im done here . Well , see how short it is? What can I say . My life are kinda the same everyday . There are not alot to talk about .
p/s : I need to start reading the dictionary back . My vocabs are running low and im pretty sure my english are drowning in the presence of modern language .
p/s/s : wish me luck for (yawn)S(yawn)P(yawn)M(yawn)
Till then ,
Aina Nadia , toodles xoxo
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